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There are so many steps to take.

But that's kinda cool, you know,M.

language

“So avoid using the word ‘very’ because it’s lazy. A man is not very tired, he is exhausted. Don’t use very sad, use morose. Language was invented for one reason, boys - to woo women - and, in that endeavor, laziness will not do. It also won’t do in your essays.”
John Keating, Dead Poets Society

just for a while

Parisian, M.

okay

Sometimes I get the sense that everything will actually be okay.

Keep thinking, M.

violence

"There is no obvious explanation for this grim event, nor can one be found. The Japanese soldiers, who had expected easy victory, instead had been fighting hard for months and had taken infinitely higher casualties than anticipated. They were bored, angry, frustrated, tired. The Chinese women were undefended, their menfolk powerless or absent. The war, still undeclared, had no clear-cut goal or purpose. Perhaps all Chinese, regardless of sex or age, seemed marked out as victims."

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Nanking_Massacre


My mind struggles to comprehend any of that.
It just cannot process any of that.

How do people go from being a person as we understand it to an animal, because such brutality does not have any other name. NO, actually, animals do not torture, they kill to feed, but not to humiliate and torture. So what is it? What is the name of this sort of violence?

I cannot process any of it.

dagö

I would very much like to feed sugarcubes to my dragon out of the palm of my hand. I would love that.

And I need to go sailing.

Wind in your sails, M.

heartbeats

Heartbeats.
HEAD HEART.
Poor, poor you.

No thing makes sense, M.

maybe

Maybe true perfect simple happiness is in walking home with some sausage in your bag, smiling at strangers, on a sunny sunny sunny road.

Maybe, M.

pride and prejudice

He walked, to Longbourne, at dawn. He walked.

And I have absolutely nothing else to say about the matter at hand.

"I love, and love, and love you", M.

friends

I want to make friends with me.

Sõbrad,
M.

johnny cash

Tell 'em that God's gonna cut you down, M.

So this is my current desktop background, and therefore the mantra I intend to follow, for the foreseeable future.

And I so agree.

brain

So many things in my head today.

Where do they fit?


And just how? How how how how how how how how how?


Tomorrow I shall go into London Town and look pretty. Potentially sunbathe in a park, and read a book, and eat a cinnamon swirl that I intend to buy from the Scandinavian kitchen. Because that is what life is about.

As ever, M.

dignity

honour, and valour. and pride and justice. and love.

"It's good to feel something."
A.S.

schweiz

Brienzersee.

What a lake.

Saw it on the 3rd train, I think, of the 5 hour journey on our way to the top of Europe.

It just appeared, just as blue, just as brilliant. And with the mountains in the background. Only the mountains were snowy. It just takes your breath away, as simple as that. A part of me never wants to leave. But then again I do want to leave, to come back and go, oh. my. heavens - this cannot be real.

But it is.

Schweiz, 
M.

zürich

Second day today. And I'm somewhat confused. Not by Switzerland (which I truly love by the way) nor anything else, it's just my reluctance to relax or something, that's strange. 

And Ben Howard is a find. 










I think I want to change my patterns. I think I really want to change my patterns. 


Accepting the unchangeable, 
M.

impatience is a virtue

Impatience is a virtue. Not always, but most of the time I truly have come to believe that it is indeed a virtue, and not the opposite.
The BIG 23. It has revealed itself and now let the games begin. Like personal Hunger Games, or whatever it is. But it feels like what I seem to believe that movie is, or the novels.
And so, I plan to play the games with impatience. That being more the energy than the thought process. But there is definitely merit in impatience.

Also, this figure out how to make sure I get what I need business is really proving to be almost neck-breakingly difficult. Whatever.

Happy New Year everyone.
With all my love, and dedication, M. (off to Switzerland, in less than 7 hours)

what do i need?

Hey, ladies und gents.
Turns out that there are some questions that I have absolutely gloriously managed to start ignoring.
Example 1. What do I need.

I find it staggering just how little time I spend on that question. Being active in the world of arts I think it is vital to have a degree of self-involvement, so much of what I do is self assessment and so on. I am fairly self-assured in the things I do and don't (to my own knowledge) let my own "needs" slip away. Maybe I do? How can I be certain I give myself what I need if I never even ask the question? Surely that is a double negation. Whatever.
Point being. I am going to Basel.
I was thinking this over and over and over, blah, blah, blah, and then, I decided that what I needed right now was a change of air. Therefore, Basel it is.
15th till the 19th of May I can be found somewhere in Basel in A's company, under some Swiss trees, with some Swiss cheese (that is such a rhyme), with some Swiss wine.
I am going to get so excited over this.

yes. because this is what I NEED. Therefore, I will do it.
THIS FEELS SO GOOD YAYAYYAYAY!
Goodnight.
Over and out, M.

machine

Wheels keep turning.

Whether we know it or not, they will turn.

And maybe that's a good thing.



The Devil doesn't play fair, M.