reminder

“Water does not resist. Water flows. When you plunge your hand into it, all you feel is a caress. Water is not a solid wall, it will not stop you. But water always goes where it wants to go, and nothing in the end can stand against it. Water is patient. Dripping water wears away a stone. Remember that, my child. Remember you are half water. If you can’t go through an obstacle, go around it. Water does.”

—	Margaret Atwood

1/04

Okay, so I'm trying this new thing.

And I present:
Working from home.



Basically, I have never been able to do this.
Home has never been a place for me where I can just calmly work (calm in terms of my inner feeling).
It's bizarre.
Working at home has made me so, jumpy is the word that comes to mind, and irritable.
And I'm really trying to change this pattern since town feels so loud.

I met the girls for lunch yesterday and stayed in the centre for about 5 hours.
(For comparison, I used to live in town, work in town, eat in town, town town town.)
So yesterday, I suddenly felt that it was too loud, too colourful, too busy, and TOO MUCH.
I came home and I realised how tired I felt, compared to how at peace I was at the fasting retreat.
This peace, birdsong, FRESH AIR, space to walk and move, grass and trees.
The things that make the world our world.
I felt like I had sat in a circus tent for hours - all this colour and movement.

So, back to my issue.
I wanna work.
If town is too loud, a simple deduction doesn't leave many options - home it is.

So I'm really gonna try this and untie this know that I have.

Work at home, since I can, and why not for now, you know? Just to come out of the post-fasting feeling of "too much".

So yep.
Home for now.
And so far, I'm sucking at working.


BUT.
This week following the fast is ALL ABOUT PATIENCE!!
This is realised yesterday.
The fasting itself takes so much patience, and now I'm back to the city-version of myself, the impatient, short-tempered one, who walks a little too fast, thinks a little too erratically.
So, coming out of fasting is the same - patience.
I want to live like that - patient.
I want to see myself like that - be patient.

That's all, happy Tuesday morning.
Peace out, all.

Love, always.
M.

fresh ink

Happy fresh-ink day, guys!

Happy Tuesday, happy nighttime and happy tattoos. 

Tattoos.

I love tattoos.

I love symbols.

It's magical, the power a symbol can carry.

Especially one with meaning to the carrier.

So here's my fresh ink.

I got the first one for my 20th and now this one for 25.

I want and need this to remind me, every day, that we should never try and control the uncontrollable.

Life flows like it flows. And all we can do is ride the wave, or drown under its mass.

And to help ourselves along, we have the 3 to take care of: body, mind and spirit.

Usually, when you balance your mind and get that peace going, your body will align itself, and as long as you'll feed it well, things are just rolling along. And then the soul or spirit can do its thing.

And THAT'S where freedom lives.

And unless there's freedom, things cannot flow and move and stay in motion.

Ride it, or drown in it - the wave, by fact and definition, stays the same. 

It doesn't change.

It's what You make of it that's different.

And that is Life and how I see it.

And I'm learning balance, and patience, and riding the wave, and letting my soul be in motion.

I'm learning to not hold on quite so tight.

I'm learning to LEARN from whatever comes my way.

And for this reason, my friends, I got a new symbol.

My symbol, my growth, my lessons, and gratitude to everything that comes my way.

Flowing like water.

LOVE.

Ride the wave.

M.

(every day)

patience

i don't understand how much you should have patience or impatience?
i don't understand anything about that at alllllllllll
whuuuuuuuuuuuuut

This is hilarious!
I found this post draft, written on the 16th of March, so 2 months ago.
And this is just so current, still, so therefore, this is hilarious.

Patience.

But the good news is, I'm learning.
I think I'm really learning.
And there's so so much positive hope in that.

Learn.
M.