yesterday

Hey, guys!

This week is apparently about Doing.


Today I first of all went and got my hair dyed.
This girl who was in my year at school in Tallinn, is training to be a hairdresser and she needed someone for a dying guinea pig.
And I just had started feeling bored with my colour and she posted on FB asking for a volunteer for Monday.
And so we did it!
I wanted to feel like a cartoon Flame girl.

Pictures below.

And then I had a meeting at the National Opera about this gala we're doing at the summer festival.
It was so nice and inspiring and gave me so much forward driving positive energy.
So thanks, life, for this day!

Peace out. 

Yours truly.

M.

choose

“Choose the positive. You have choice, you are master of your attitude, choose the positive, the constructive. Optimism is a faith that leads to success.”

—

Bruce Lee

reminders

how-to noodle

For starters, I'm not posting this to discuss building self-esteem.
So I called it:

"10 Steps to Noodle".

I'm super in love with some of these points.

First of all.
Know yourself.

That is just such an infinite well of inspiration, and excitement.
Something that will never ever run dry.
Just - imagining all the things that I still haven't discovered about myself.
I mean, think about it?
All of the things that my body and mind are capable of, and could be capable of.
Infinite.
All I need to do, all YOU need to do, is just Do.
You cannot be without doing.

Secondly.
Understanding what makes you feel great.

This is absolutely not as easy as it sounds.
Sometimes the true joys and passions are hiding.
Somewhere under the floorboards of your being and your soul.
Again, all the joy in finding out what they really are.

What we really are.

That.
Is.

Magic.

So there you go.
10 steps to Noodle.
I like them.
They are simple and nice, and just positive.
Life-affirming, kindness-affirming.

Lovely.

With love and light.
Yours truly.
M.

tomorrow

Plans for tomorrow (to make sure I get my ass up, out of bed and actually do some stuff):

_Library (for some Nekrassov!)
_Buy a dress-bag
_And buy a map
_Throw some things in the wash

_Meet Pisces-no-2 and chill like actual villains, on a beach, with lady chats, and get my tan on
_Meet the Spaniard as soon as she reaches the boarders of the capital

_(And just so I wouldn't fall behind on life admin) check my e-mails....please.....no, seriously though..


_And think SUPER MANY happy thoughts.

Lists.
M.

joie

Joy of life.
Apparently this month is meant to be second to none in terms of Pisces and their planets.

So, listen, the thing is.
If there is anything positive, planets, signs, symbols, whateveeerrrr, if it's positive, I'll take it.

So yes, some planets are meant to be aligning in the best possible way for Pisces.

Let's go crazy.

Joie de vivre.
M.

aujourd'hui

Today was a Tuesday.
And the weather was nice.
I saw an old friend (although she's like a forever friend to be honest), talked some art with interesting people and then ended the day on this terrace, which is awesome.
So now I'm home. Chilling and being horizontal, with Biggest Loser.

I'm quite chilled out.
This feels nice.

I've got plenty of work to do, but I will wake up tomorrow morning and do that, and for now these thoughts are allowed to vacate my mind.

And leave behind, peace. Tranquil peace, which is of course emptiness in itself. But not the kind of emptiness that should ever be feared.
The good kind.

Oh, and, what I wanted was interesting people.
And this is what I got.
Tonight, I'm allowing myself to feel good about stuff, regardless of all the things I still need to do.
I will always have things to do.
But tonight, I'm allowing myself to feel good.

Allow yourself to feel good.
M.

patience

i don't understand how much you should have patience or impatience?
i don't understand anything about that at alllllllllll
whuuuuuuuuuuuuut

This is hilarious!
I found this post draft, written on the 16th of March, so 2 months ago.
And this is just so current, still, so therefore, this is hilarious.

Patience.

But the good news is, I'm learning.
I think I'm really learning.
And there's so so much positive hope in that.

Learn.
M.

ourselves?

Okay, so I've been thinking about this for a while now.
And had this draft written but never finished.

I think this started when I was thinking of this idea of "working hard" at something. I've always been proud of the fact that if I want to do something or want to get something, I work hard.
Which is great and fine.
However, what if we're working hard at things that just don't deserve it?
Or things which will not bare fruit, because they don't have the potential?


We should all aim at and try to have enough respect for ourselves to recognise the time to walk away.

Often the need to work hard at something is emphasised, over and over and over, and over, and over again. As if the process has inherent value, regardless of the end.
Fine.
I get it.
It's good to work hard, and it will get you places.
But.

Sometimes things just run out of inertia and what happens then?
They come to an end.
Simple as that.

So I really hope, that when the time is right, you and I will have enough bravery to recognise the "stop" point. To say "thank you, this was great", and to walk away.
From anything at all - actual and tangible, or mental, anything.
Anything in your life.
Jobs, ideas, friends, partners, hair colour, your favourite pants, or the city you live in.
Anything at all.

Because at the very very very end of the day, this is your one life, and your own happiness. No one else's.
And even if holding on seems like a brilliant idea, it's not.

So I really hope you have the courage to recognise when it's time to walk away from something.
I'm really trying to start understanding which is which.

As ever.
With love.
M.

new

Hi, readers from new countries! This is so exciting.

However, something not so exciting is the fact that my laptop charger has just stopped working, completely. So I'm currently on AEM's laptop.
The only "pro" of this situation is that I might get more packing done. So I'm really really really really going to try and concentrate on the positive aspects of this stupid stupid situation.
Since my laptop is a Dell I can't just walk into a shop and buy a new charger cause everything is done online. AEM's brother is some tech-genius so I'm going to see him tomorrow.

I'm sorry we've just been discussing my charger.
But hey, it hit me hard.
And I want to blog on my own laptop, where all my photos are saved.
Whatever.

What would significantly cheer me up right now is some ice-cream.

I hope all of your chargers are working.
M.