fertile soil

Hey, guys!

Happy Monday!
This is a post about soil, seeds and fertility.



Spring is a time for new life.
Life coming out of the soil, of muck and mud, making something where there was none before.
It's a season all dedicated to new beginnings, and births.
And planting the seeds.
Plant as many as you can, and find some fertile soil.
Find soil that fits you.
Don't throw your precious seeds of ideas and emotions and needs on soil where people disrespect and disregard you.

Your wishes and your wants are your children - treat them as such.
With love and care and let them grow grow grow, stronger and steadier.
And one day they will make new life themselves.
Don't drown your inspiration, but hold it above water and see what happens.


I felt something today.
I realised that it's time for me to grow and finally see that some things in this world are forever.

That not everything runs out.
Some things don't have a beginning or an end, they just are.
Forces and waves bigger than me and you and all of us put together.
Some things don't run out.
Some things are infinite, the tap keeps running.
Some things don't have a beginning and an end.
They just are.
The Love that flows about in this world is not a limited resource - it flows and flows and flows.
It remains.
Not everything runs out.

And so we don't need to hold on just so tight.
There will always be something to catch us if we just give life a chance to catch up.
It's like keeping your eyes shut really shut, and saying how dark everything is.
There's always something.

But this takes such courage (which I'm working on right now).
To trust that some taps just keep running, running, running until the end of infinity.


Trust life, so magic can come and help you.
Quite seriously.
Love, always.
M.

the Return

And once again, I'm back!

These past few months have just been a string of leavings and returnings.
And so I have once again returned from Finland.

My stay with A. was super peaceful.
We did some rowing (I have a blister hole in my hand to prove it), spent a lot of sauna time, had some excellent food cooked by her parents, points to a marvellous stake a la Father, did some talking, a lot of board-gaming, face-masking, sunning, reading, tea-drinking, plenty of sleeping and so forth.
In one word: summering.

Sadly I have absolutely no photos.

So yes, I've no returned to Tallinn with a head full of thoughts, that need to be organised.
Pronto.

And I'm also planning to go back to Finland again, next week.

Summer-time.
M.

few days

These past few days have gone by super fast.

Last few gigs done, they've gone super well to carry on our amazing streak and we are almost done now.
One last one to go tomorrow.

And I'm currently in bed with Spanish.
Watching Gordon and drinking tea.
Me, Spanish and The Cat.

I'm so ready to go to Finland and see A. in her summer house.
Just sauna and reading and rowing and drinking tea and swimming and sunning or not, whatever.
So ready for this.
I want some things done beginning of the week, not later than Wednesday - some more, some less practical.
Brother's birthday, I absolutely will go for a massage (my body is so so tired, the touring takes it's toll eventually), sort out my e-mails, sort through my clothes (Spanish and I wanna go for this humongous clothes sale), then take a lot of paper and writing utensils with me and go to Finland. To write, and sketch, and think all the thoughts and write down all the ideas.
Good.

This is such an amazing development from last year.
Vocally, physically, and for me most importantly - psychologically.
By the end of the tour last year I was such a mess, all over.
A. came to visit and she was literally like, calm down, now.
This year has been so enjoyable, and I'm really sad this tour is almost done now.
So awesome, being able to measure development.

Over and out for tonight.

With love.
M.

today

Spaniard and I are going for a day-trip! Yyyyaayyy!
To see Pisces-no-2.

This will be a day spent sunning and chatting and yes please.
And then gig-time again tomorrow, and because of these 2 days off I'm SUPER looking forward to it!

So happy Tuesday everyone.

I am pleased TO BITS today.

With love.
M.

tomorrow

Plans for tomorrow (to make sure I get my ass up, out of bed and actually do some stuff):

_Library (for some Nekrassov!)
_Buy a dress-bag
_And buy a map
_Throw some things in the wash

_Meet Pisces-no-2 and chill like actual villains, on a beach, with lady chats, and get my tan on
_Meet the Spaniard as soon as she reaches the boarders of the capital

_(And just so I wouldn't fall behind on life admin) check my e-mails....please.....no, seriously though..


_And think SUPER MANY happy thoughts.

Lists.
M.

eyes

I truly wanna squint into the sun.
Eyes almost shut, and so much light coming in.
Light and warmth.

I wanna squint into the sun.

Sense.
M.

sun

There's just this super ghetto looking lot of nothing behind our apartment block.
But it gets real pretty sunsets and sunrises. 

So I'm super pleased they are yet to fill it with all-sorts of buildings, but for now, it just is.

Sunsets.
M.

shine

Those shadows.

Pink sand.
M.

spring

Spring is coming, it's official.
The sun was so hot yesterday. And it's sunny again today.

I might actually go to town today, and stare some sunshine in the face (..ps, I did do that, and it was so nice. The pretty one came and picked me up, and we had some pasta in sunny sunny Vapiano.)

Crazy what sunshine does.

Embrace the rays.

With love.
M.

PS. I JUST CAN'T WAIT :)

evening

Burgers.
Double cheese, please.

I want a Mcdo burger. 
M.

under the same sun

This movie, "Under the Tuscan Sun", has been with me through every move I've ever seen.
I don't know how I found it, but it just arrived in my life and it has stayed.
I haven't seen many movies that have this effect on me. It's a mixture of brilliant writing (based on an autobiographical novel), a brilliant performance by Diane Lane, the colours of Tuscany, the great excitement-creating soundtrack and just, the sense of life giving new exciting opportunities, even when you really really do not expect any of them.
And as is the tradition, with boxes comes "Under the Tuscan Sun".
Yes, yes, yes.

The tap.
Hmm, interesting.
There's this 'tap' theme. I don't want to give much away, in the hopes you'll watch it one day when you need a pick-me-up. But yeah, maybe that's why I like the idea of "the tap".
Interesting..

Bramasole.
Bramare, to yearn for, and Sole, the sun.
Yes, beautiful.

Say "yes".
With love.
M.

raging nights and sun-kissed mornings

"the sun and the stars"

do we have time
to go for the sun and the stars
like
do we have any time
at all

should we ever think we have the time
but maybe we do
so let yourself burn
and let others burn too

because whether there's a lot
or a little
point is
time flies

With love.
M.